Tuesday, December 30, 2014

A reflection for 2014

There goes another year and it means it is time for another yearly reflection! 

I do a reflection post every year. This year is gonna be a little (a lot) different because there will be no pictures! haha. Truth is this year is a really slack year for me. I did not do much and my life wasn't very happening either. 2014 is a slack year for me. But anyway i will still do my reflection on it. 

January: Ok i have to think about this. What did i do in Jan? I came back from Hong Kong on the 1st of Jan. Went to school. Slack in school. Did not start studying. Celebrated my boyfriend's birthday. A month passed. 

February: I spent $100 plus buying all the groceries from NTUC for Valentine's Day. I made macaroon and tiramisu. Made soup and other food. Spent the entire day cooking. Then i told myself, i am not gonna cook for next year's Valentine's Day. We will just dine out. 

March: It was my birthday! My boyfriend baked a birthday cake for me. Started touching my books to prepare for my exam. 

April: School ended and it was revision period. Did more intense revision. Woke up at 10 in the morning and studied till 8pm everyday. Stayed at home every day. 

May: Exam ended. Free from books! Officially started my holidays. Nope i did not travel overseas for the holidays. Stayed at home everyday. My mother came over for 3 days. I was so happy and i ate so much? (Only for that 3 days) 

June: Continued staying at home. Did not hang out much. Boring month. 

July: Another boring month. Received my exam result. It was a total disappointment. This was when i knew UOL exam is tough! And now i am pretty much more clear to how i should tackle the exam question, especially theory questions. There are tons to write. I wrote too little during the exam. And so instead of graduating next year, my graduation delayed one year. I exceeded the number of subjects i can take for the following school year. So i had to split them to two years instead. I tried to give myself comforting reasons e.g. I can do my braces. I will be less stress. I have more time to do other things. 

August: Started teaching my first student! 

September: New semester is starting soon. Another boring month. Didn't hang out. Didn't do anything fun. But started getting more serious about my braces treatment. Cleaned my teeth and etc. 

October: School started. Started teaching my second student too! 

November: My grandma came to visit us. She stayed for a month. 

December: Got my braces on! This is the only thing i was happy about for 2014. At least i did something that i will remember and will benefit me in the future. 

Ok this pretty much sums up my whole year. Its been a quiet year for me! haha. I prefer staying at home this year and i don't know why too. Maybe it is because the last few years had been tired for me.

One thing i can say is that i've definitely grown more mature. Some things become clear to me. However, i'm still figuring out who i really am. I'm in this confuse stage where my true identity is unidentified. My life has a 360 degree change. I don't know which is the true me. Guess it will take time to see. 

Looking back this year, i wish i had done something crazy. It's alright. Maybe it will happen in 2015. 

I wanna ride roller coaster. I wanna go to Phuket and Bali. I wanna visit my Grandmother in China. Have not seen her for 10 years! I wish my braces will be done next year in December. What else? Oh yes i wish i win 1 million Toto. I hope i save a lot of money. I hope i save enough and be ready to do Lasik one and half year later. (That is in May 2016) I wish KCYMjewelry will expand. Honestly i'm pretty surprise that i'm still doing this now. Its been a year and a half since i first started calling it KCYM. Perhaps i will be studying about designs and stuff next year? What about learning French? I completed my basic french lesson in Poly. Maybe i can pick it up again? I will write down all my wishes and goals and put 'em inside a glass bottle! hehe. 

My bf and i haven't decide what to do tomorrow for the countdown. Most probably we will just be at home. I really am in this 'home mode' this year. 

Alright. HAVE A NICE NEW YEAR EVERYONE! 

Saturday, December 27, 2014

2014 going 2015


Baked some cinnamon rolls for Christmas! How did you all celebrate Christmas? This roll took me about 3 hours to do and another 1 hour plus to clear & clean everything. Taste turned out awesome but it gets harder as it sits longer. So it tasted super awesome when its just out from the oven! Soft and fluffy haha. 

Having the cooking mood recently. I'm really luck to be able to eat almost everything while having braces. And sorry for the late of posts! I've being such a home girl lately. Honestly, i haven't been out and about with anyone for months. I prefer to stay at home and be a lazy pig & chill. U know there are times when you just feel like doing this right? 

Sometimes i ask myself if this is right: I was so out-going last time and what happen now? Why am i always home? Why don't i dress up anymore but still like buying clothes & pretty stuff? What is the purpose of buying all these when i don't even go out? Am i lazy? Why is there a 360 degree change in my lifestyle? 

Anyone can answer these questions for me? I like being at home because i can save a lot of money. I can wear comfy home clothes, no make up, & just chill at home. Ah i think of a possible reason suddenly. It must be because i have very little purchasing power and that is why i feel the need to be at home(?). And also i'm just being very lazy. 

I get tired easily now. I go to bed early now. I wake up at 9am. Start to drink a cup of milk everyday. Pack my room and wash my bedsheets more frequently now. Sometimes i feel like a housewife more than a student. I get frustrated over why this is my situation and there's nothing i can change about it. The only thing i can change is the way i think now. But this is really easier said than done. You speak to yourself that you must think positive but honestly, after all this, how can you still be positive??? 

Sometimes i dream that i smash everything, walk out and never look back. Guess as you age, your troubles increase. Sigh... Things just happen, with a cause, for a reason. 

Thinking when is the day i can have a Merry Christmas. 

Another 4 more days till the end of 2014. Last year i celebrated the countdown in Hong Kong it was pretty awesome. What meaningful things can i do to finish this year's journey? This year has been so fast. 

Everyone says 'Next year will be a better year'. (Just go instagram/twitter/facebook and u will see posts like this on the 31st Dec 2014 haha) To be true, this is just a wish. We can't suddenly solve all the problems. We can't stop working just because we hate our boss or hate our job or hate our colleagues. We can't undo what we have done that make us regret. You simply just can't close your eyes and say "next year will be a better year" because truth is WHAT IS A BETTER YEAR? 

What are you hoping for??? The most irritating thing is to hope for something that you know can never happen. 

I can think of a better year perhaps, for me, that is to win 1 million ToTo. LOL. But i feel winning this kind of money has a price to take. My grandma told me this guy won 3 million lottery and the following month he spent his time in the hospital. He got last stage cancer or something. It was in the Hong Kong newspaper. So she was telling me there is a consequence to everything we do. OK WHATEVER I HOPE I WIN TOTO WITHOUT ANY CONSEQUENCE! 

TWO THINGS I HOPE FOR IN 2015: 

1. Stop my self-contradiction. Just because i always think two sides to a coin, i always contradict myself. And i effing hate it!!! Can't i just be one-sided sometimes? haha. I don't know but i need to stop being so soft-hearted. Stop putting myself into other people's shoe. This can be wrong but i think i have to be a bit more selfish if not i am only making myself VERY unhappy. You know? 为自己找想一下. 


2. I WISH FOR WORLD PEACE. Just let me read the newspaper for once that there are no wars, no murder, no political issues or whatsoever. NO NATURAL DISASTER NEXT YEAR. Think that day the newspaper company can have a day off work. lol. Ok a bit unrealistic but i really do wish to world peace. 

And that's it. I think i've grown a little more mature this year compared to last year. Can't wait to see what happens in 2015. Will i win 1 million toto? hahahaha. 

xx 

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

IS HAVING BRACES PAINFUL?!!

Just a quick update on my braces treatment. Picture below was the second day after putting on braces. I am only having braces for my upper set of teeth. Honestly if you ask me i wouldn't want to take away my baby canine. Unfortunately i am not born 50-100 years later where technology will be so great that we don't have to have braces to make our teeth straight anymore. Too bad i am born in this era haha.. (Not sure if there will be such a technology but i am sure scientists are experimenting it already. 10 years ago we don't have invasalign but now we have. Maybe 100 years later we can have our teeth straighten in a day. Sorry for the sudden side track. Back to topic!)  ...Have to go for braces if you want an affordable and straight set of teeth. 

Alright here is the truth from me:

DO YOU FEEL PAIN AFTER HAVING BRACES?

No leh. I felt fine and i felt nothing major. I don't feel pain when i talk too. I was already prepared for the pain to kick in an hour later after braces. I heard and saw a lot of comments that they felt damn pain & they couldn't sleep and what not. I guess i am lucky! hahaha. 

I only feel like i have something in my teeth that is all. 

If you don't touch your teeth, YOU WON'T FEEL PAIN. For the first three days i wasn't able to chew. I literally had to give up biting and consume just porridge. THE ONLY PAINFUL PART WAS TO HAVE ANYTHING IN CONTACT TO YOUR TEETH. So to avoid that, just 'drink' porridge. Your teeth will be very sensitive for the first few days after braces. BUT YOU WILL ONLY FEEL SENSITIVE WHEN SOMETHING TOUCH YOUR TEETH. E.g. if you drink water and the cup accidentally knocked slightly to your teeth, OUCH that can hurt. Or you try biting even the softest food, OUCH that can hurt too. So just don't touch your teeth la. Just eat porridge and won't feel pain. hahaha. 

Today is the 9th day of braces and i can bite and eat already. I really shouldn't scare myself by reading so much braces experience from others. 自己吓自己. 

Next question

DID YOU HAVE A LOT OF ULCERS??? 

Again, nope! I think i am really lucky because i asked my friends who did braces before and all of them said they have ulcers! Also i read all the braces experience from online and 90% of them said they had ulcers. They had tons of ulcers, super ultra big ulcers and ... just ulcers la. 

I was very afraid of getting ulcers. Who doesn't? But i also had a mental preparation of getting a few. And then that first night, i was waiting for my ulcers. Didn't come and i waited another day.. And another day until i sort of confirm that i won't have ulcers, I THINK. haha. But i am taking precautions everyday. I make sure i don't move my lip a lot and keep very good oral hygiene.

Yup i guess those are the only 2 popular questions people like to know. OH i tried eating BA GUA and i can eat! LOL. 

Wait i shouldn't be too happy first because this is just my first treatment. Maybe i will feel pain and have ulcers and feel damn horrible when i go for next treatment. But i pray not. Hope my teeth can move as fast as possible too. Felt like months of putting on braces already and its only 9 days. Everyday i check if any of my tooth has moved. So far only the front ones are working. haha. Then i keep talking to my teeth and tell them to please move faster... Sigh ok i'm getting a bit nonsensical here already. I will stop here. goodnights!

xx 

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